Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Long time no see, sorry. It's another one of "those" posts from me..

And not much good news to start my first post in just about forever.
Confessions first...
I have been eating like CRAP for the last few months.
I have done very little to no exercise for just as long.
I really haven't cared, and it's been showing in my ever increasing weight and waist.
I've had zero motivation, and been avoiding the blog and everyone involved(minus Chai I work with her and she's still and always will be one of my very best friends).

Now, where does that leave me?
Right about 230 pounds of solid, lazy fat!!!! :/ That's what.

Lame, I know, and pretty sad too. I've discovered, the more I eat like crap, and less I exercise, the more easy it is for me to continue to do so. Chai has tried on many occasions to help me out of this funk, but as they always say.."If you're not willing, you're not going to succeed" and that is me to a T. I think I'm motivated again, and boy is it discouraging at first. hahaha

I decided I'm sick of it, and signed up for a 5-day free trial at a local gym. Boy am I out of shape. Stuff I used to do for hours on end had me winded and crying like a baby in 20 minutes. I got real soft, real fast. So, I'm jumping back in, and as far as right now goes, if I'm not working out after work, I'm playing music. In an ideal situation, I'll be hitting the gym(or running at Chai's etc.) and then practicing the bass after I get home.

I know I've had posts like this a few times in the past, and 3 days later I'm back to eating pizza, with more toppings than Bill Gates has money. Never before was I having debates with myself over buying new pants, because I can barely fit in these anymore...It's really not a feeling I enjoy. I'm trying to find as many people close to me that want to hit the gym, various days, gyms, I don't care. If you're in the area, give me a holler, any help with keeping me motivated and fat burning, I'll take it! day one was a big success, and the plan this time, is one day at a time.

BTW Chai, that race to 210 is still on, only difference is now.. I'm motivated!! ;)


2 refreshing comments:

Melissa Whittaker (mswhittaker23) said...

You know, I could have written this blog a few months ago. (I think I even DID write something similar). It's tough, to constantly be motivated to eat healthy (especially when pizza and buffalo wings and french fries and ice cream taste soooooo much better than broccoli and lean meat, at least in my mind). But I have no doubt that you can do it. I've seen you skinny! You CAN DO IT.

Chai Latté said...

You got this :-)

I know schedules are hard to work out, but I'll always try to be flexible for you. We'll get you a good, solid schedule... all you need to do is keep the motivation! :-)