Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Weeeeee-ooooooo-weeeeeeee-oooooo *flashing lights*

This evening was my first real physical therapy session. It was... underwhelming.
I am going to try and trust that they can really do something for me. But today? It was a freakishly quick 30 minutes, though, I think we started about 10 minutes late...so, you do the math.

I did 4 exercises, all of which I do at the gym already (because my trainers know their bid'ness, bitches!)
She tried to stretch me, but discovered I am too flexible. Actually, she said my hips are so flexible that it is part of the problem.  They are a bit loosey-goosey! And I always thought my flexibility was a good, healthy thing!

The therapist is nice, albeit a tiny bit condescending, but honestly, I think she's sweet, and she's peppy, so I like her just fine. Truth-be-told, I'd probably judge me based on appearance, too.

Anywhoodle...

I'm sort of stuck right now. And I feel like I am having a bit of a mental war.

While I was doing one of the exercises she told me to do this exercise at home on my "off days". I said, rather quickly - "I don't have any off days"  and she looked at me funny.
It made me think about how rough that sounds.

Am I burning out? Am I working too hard? I want to give my all to achieve my goals... but I am giving my all and I am only gaining weight now. And when that is not happening, I am staying stagnant.

So, what do I do? Do I chill out? Do I just give a good effort and let it do what it wants to do?
Do I push extra hard and give it my all times 100?

I don't know. I don't know what to do.

I need a review. I need someone to tell me what I am doing right, what I am doing wrong and how to make it work better. I need someone to tell me I've made some kind of improvement. It's been so long since I've seen a change or felt progress. It is starting to feel like Sisyphus up in this joint.

Oh, what's that sound? is that the siren of the WAAAAAAAHMBULANCE coming to pick me up?
Yes, I think it is! I'm gonna cut this short, cause I am not a fan of whining.

Seems like a good time to go to bed! My quads are SORE from squat central at training last night, they need a good snooze! Good night all.

PS : I need more water. I know this. I never drink water. Bob is on to me. Will up my intake. PROMISE. (I won't like it, though!)

4 refreshing comments:

Melissa Whittaker said...

Which office/where is your physical therapist?

I went to Pro Rehab on Chelmsford Street (the Zeus building next to the package store) and they were really good.

Melissa Whittaker said...

Oh, I had another comment - on the part about needing more water.

I actually love water, and it's almost all I can drink right now. But I'm supposed to drink at least 3 quarts a day, and that is so hard! It's like, 6 bottles of water!

Chai Latté said...

I'm going to Emerson (by Chilis)

I actually don't drink ANY water on a normal day. Typically, I drink one iced coffee and that is it. I drink water while I am at the gym, but not a lot (cause I hate a sloshy tum!)

I really need to try VERY hard to get water down... but I need to just try harder I think!

Rebecca said...

have you thought of using crystal lite packets at first?

i cant imagine not drinking any water?! altho i should... I've been there but now that I do drink at least 2 liters a day... i cant!

you'll get there!

maybe try sneaking 1 rest day at first, I often think I need to go balls to the wall with exercise too but I just get burnt out and I notice my workouts begin to falter. I try to shoot for one rest day at least every 3 days, and it doesnt mean to sit on your bum, you could go for a leisurely stroll or bike ride.