Saturday, December 6, 2008

So disappointing.

I was looking for something in my closet last night. I didn't find it. But I did come across the dress I wore for my sister's wedding, it reminded me that her TWO year anniversary was just a couple weeks ago. Two years ago I wore this size 18 dress with extra panels sewn in because it didn't fit. Two years ago I wanted to look beautiful for my sister's big day. I was the only bridesmaid wearing a jacket over my dress to disguise my gigantic flubbery arms.
I started to think about how good I've eaten, and how hard I've worked out this past year. Surely, I've come so far.
So, I did exactly what I should not have. I tried it on.

Expecting it to gap, and flop, and fall of me. Before putting it on, I noticed the inside, the seams were stressed and nearly busted.

I zipped it up, and it was just as snug and sausagey as it had been that night. I was so embarrassed and disappointed.

But today, it's fine. Today, I am just looking forward to the day that I zip it up, and it falls to the floor.

4 refreshing comments:

Melissa said...

:(

October said...

I have a dress like that. It's the one that I wore to my grandfather's funeral. Little black dress that even though is still much smaller than I am now, I wore a jacket with because I was embarrassed of my arms. When I look at it in my closet I dream of being small enough to fit into it again. I think I will always be embarrassed of my arms, no matter how small I get. Skin just doesn't go back after being too big for too long.
Cheer up girl, we are both dreaming for a similar thing and we will both, in time, get there!

Lori said...

:hugs: Keep at it. Never give up. If losing weight and keeping it off was easy, everyone would be thin.

Blueberry Muffin Queen (Jenn) said...

:hugs:

You're on the right track! Keep your chin up!