Tuesday, September 15, 2009

For my self-love being so embarrassingly conditional. . .

I stole this from RODER who allegedly stole it from TONY. And I loved it.

". . . would cheat on your spouse on Christmas? What about Thanksgiving? Would you have an affair, but only on Halloween? If you wouldn't cheat on your spouse on a holiday, why do you think it's okay to cheat on yourself? Why is it okay to cheat on your diet/lifestyle?"

Of course, that is taking it pretty extreme, but I do agree with the sentiment. We do all seem to feel like it's OK to cheat ourselves, even though we are the kind of people that would NEVER cheat on someone else. And the biggest thing I hear from family, friends, coworkers, etc.. is "but its SUCH&SUCH, you can eat whatever you want today!" Whether it be a holiday, a birthday, or a day on which I "earned" something special... it's ALWAYS something. But for me.. it's not. Thanksgiving is NOT special enough for me to eat 4000 calories like it's nothing, and those homemade cookies you brought in are NOT special enough that I HAVE to try them (or be banished to the party-pooper section of the world)

Alanis (my hero!) has a song called Sorry 2 Myself, which says "I'm sorry to myself, for treating me worse than I would anybody else" And every time I hear that line I cringe a little, because I know how true it is, and I wish I could REALLY, reeeaaally let is sink in. I want to find the love and respect for myself that I have for everyone that I know.

So, let's not cheat ourselves anymore. And lets begin by apologizing to ourselves.

And here's the song, for anyone looking for some awesomeness today :


Please leave me a comment. Tell me what you apologize to yourself for.
Anything at all. And I mean EVERYBODY! Even my anonymous stalker readers :-) Stay anonymous if you please, but I want you to participate, it's important!

10 refreshing comments:

Chai Latté said...

I'll leave mine first...

I am sorry to myself...

... for believing every insult, but ignoring every compliment.

... for letting my weight and self esteem affect EVERY single facet of my life negatively.

... for never standing up to the bully inside myself, until now.

... for subscribing to, and relying on excuses for so long.

Fatty McFat-Fat said...

I'm sorry to myself...

...for being so negative to myself and short changing my abilities.

...for knowing what the problems are, but not doing anything to fix the situation

...for taking bad care of my body, but expecting so much from it.

...for realizing how long of a list I could make this, but having to take 6 hours to come up with a list of 10 positive things about myself.

~Oct said...

I'm sorry for always taking the easier downhill paths my whole life. Now there is nothing ahead of me but difficult uphill climbs for as far as my eyes can see.

Abby said...

I could have written a very similar list to yours, but instead I will go a different route and say that I don't need to apologize for feeling how I feel at times.

No excuses, no shortcuts, no apologies. I just need to buck up and make the changes.

I often apologize for things that I have no control over--how someone else views me, what they may think about something, etc.--and it breaks down my self-esteem (and I need no help breaking that myself, at times).

So, I guess instead I'm going to accept my own apology and move on from here!

Melissa Vegas said...

I'm sorry for not taking enough "me time." For not stopping the stress & anxiety enough and allow my body to relax like it needs to.

laura said...

i'm sorry to myself...

for telling myself i wasn't worthy because i was fat and for under-estimating myself

both of which i still do today, but i'm working on it.

My 3 Month Challenge said...

I am sorry to myself..

for not believing in myself (enough) and giving myself the positivity and confidence that I deserve!!
--> working on this!

for thinking I can cheat myself, even if just a little, on weekends/ holidays/ getaways. Cheating is still cheating...

MackAttack said...

I'm sorry for not paying attention sooner to the path I was going down. I'm sorry for not learning that it is important to make healthy choices sooner.

Susan said...

I am sorry to myself . . .

. . . for needing to be the one that does it all even though I know that I can't

. . . for sometimes caring about what other people think and letting that affect my decisions

. . . for all the anxiety and worry that I feel everyday even though I have no control over it

. . . not being able to be a stay-at-home Mom

BuilderAdam said...

I appologize to my more outgoing half for quashing his ability to shine in the presence of "the possibility of failure".

I appologize to my inner child for admonishing him for being interested in childish things.

I appologize to my future self for making him have to fend of opportunities and success with a stick! ;)